Loser n problems??

Loser??? there's no loser in losing...
cause all winner have lost before dun they??
as for me ...luck was not on my team's side that day..
maybe not on the semi final...
we played well...we gave fight....n we were actually better than the other team...
we played hard but in the end ladyluck was smiling ...
but not because we won....
but because she is saving the luck for us to use next time...
maybe that next time is more important than this time..:)
neway....at least we tried...
i'm proud of my team .....the captain was great n the players went 100% n maybe more..
that was not our day...
at least we din lose at giving our strength n will to win
at least we din give up..
at least we put up a fight....
but i felt pity to the seniors..they were great..i mean really gud...they deserve to win...
wut i learned from last weekend...
u might think that u are losing....but u r not...
u might be in control but u wont know the outcome...
it might not like wut u think it will be ...
it's His decision that will give u the answer in the end...
but that dusnt mean u could just sit n watch...
waiting n waiting wont do nething...
u gotta move...move with confidence...
sometimes u gotta trust urself with wut u r doing...
it might be hard but sumtimes it's worth it...
loser is sumone who fails to decide to do something ...
loser is also someone who decides to do something but fails to do it...
not the one who decide to do something but fail after trying
we planned we tried to stick to our plan n we did stick to them...
again we are not blaming the lady luck for the lost...
we just know that lady luck is keeping that luck for us until we really need it..
God has plan for us...He knows wut's best...maybe we lost yesterday...
that dusnt mean we will lose everyday...
loser is someone who is afraid of facing the problem he's having..
but he doesn't know that....
problem is for us to solve...
problem is for us to face...
problem wont trouble u until u trouble urself...
problem is a fren unless u run away...
problem is a teacher unless u dun want to learn from them
problems teach us to decide n be wise in making our decisions...
without problems there will be no amazing creation...
so to be a wise man n not a loser ....go find problems...
but u gotta find the problems that u know u could face...
not looking problems that u know that u will run away from them...
cause the problem have gps n they could detect where u are...
so be nice to them or else...
u know wut's gonna happen...;)

why good things dun last long??

Today woke up at 2 and was thinking wut should i do apart from train myself to wake up early??
so i talk to myself...have i been good all this while?? cause i don't think so...
but that is not the point of my story today...yeay cool...it rained today ...why am i supposed to skip n goes to rain??
okay back to the topic pls....
everybody will agree with me that nothing last forever ...but good things have never lasted so long ...
same goes to feeling....all you will know suddenly the feeling will be gone...
but how can we make it as long as we want?? i mean we are never satisfied with what we have..
that's why we are called human rite???
but then again...we have our brain to control them ... just like one of my favourite quote
"you can't just listen to your heart, you got to listen to your brain" - tin cup
but what people do nowadays ....they listen more to their heart just to satisfy themselves first...
but i dun think that will solve nething as human can never be fully satisfied..
and that's a fact....that's why Allah created brain...am i right??
this brain should control ur satisfaction and desire...
without this brain we are no better than lions
without this brain we are no better than chicken
without this brain we are no better than cats ??
without brain cats could even be better than us ..
see wut i mean...at least cat knows where his or her house is..
for someone who has no brain...do they even know they have house??
i guess no... so people...let's use follow our brain more than our heart..
cause world is actually a catastrophic place right now...because people follow their heart more than their brain
n this brain should help us to learn from our mistake ....the past meant nothing when u don't learn
but this brain could also destroy us and other people when we misused it,
so to avoid misusing of the brain u gotta have a good heart...now it goes back to the heart..
so do u get wut i'm trying to show here...from all i know ...
everything in this world are connected...n if one thing has gone out of their function n think for itself,
that is a monster disaster as it will effect other things too..
So to create a gud world u gotta start with a gud heart,
and a gud heart will always lead a gud brain,
with this combination u will make a gud decision that could give gud not just to u but also to others ...;)

I'm A PROUD FULHAM FAN

tomorrow...my wish could come true...it's two years since i started supporting this team..
last season was difficult n so does the year before and when chris coleman was sacked..
that was a bit down part of the story..
you see people have always been sarcastic bout the team that i'm supporting...
they have always been laughing...ok wut if i say i support spurs...i mean IF
people would certainly talk bad bout them not because they think that team suck...
but it's because that team is quite strong and they dun like them cause they are strong..
because most of them are supporters of big guns such as ARSenal,LIVERpool, ManCHESTHAIR UNITED, or even cHELLsea... oh 3 out of four are part of human body..
sorry to their supporter...hehe....ok back to the topic...
those fan most probably dun like teams like everton or spurs just because they could kill their dream....
but when i say that i support fulham...everyone will laugh...
i mean laugh in a sarcastic way...that is they way like...OMG...u hopeless little boy..
Fulham will never get newhere..dun u get it...NOWHERE!!..
but i laughed with them instead of hating them ... cause it might be true...
but tomorrow i'll be laughing even harder cause nobody have ever expected this to happen..
not even me...cause if we finish 8th on the table...that is actually an achievement ..
thinking back with players we have...8th is not easy...but we still made it..
so the lowest we could get now is the highest in our history...;)
n the highest we could get will be the cloud nine... that is EUROPA LEAGUE!!
that might not be as cool as CHAMPIONS LEAGUE( i still believe someday we'll be there)
but we still in europe...;)
at least better than Manchesthair Citybank...that has billions..
n we have somehow...less than 10 millions??
yup...that shows money isn't everything in the world...:D
but brain is!!....at least Roy Hodgson's brain is working ...;)
and hardwork does pay....ok i might be sound cocky...but i'm not as cocky as the big four ..
i mean they think they are invincible....that's why they call themselves the "big four"...
we'll see....cause i believe this ain't the end ...but only the start of the history...;)
we have beaten ARSenal, n MAN'sCHESTHAIR united's ARS ...at our scarily small
CRAVEN COTTAGE!!!
we were unlucky with chelsea n maybe Liverpool deserved the win...;)
cause i saw the match...but we aint far from them...
we just need to BELIEVE...just like wut miss Albakry would say to me...:P
N I BELIEVE ...we will reach the top one day...
all we need rite now is patience n take things step by step...
All the best for tomorrow the cottagers... Although new in my heart ..
it's long enough to make me feel a part of you guys...
C'mon FULHAM...C'mon FULHAM!!!

Responsibility??

Today i decided to change the colour of my writing or better known as font...
i dunno....this past few days has been weird...it's like sort of showing me hell lot of sign..
sign that i should have more feeling of responsible...
more feeling of care rather than care more or less...
suddenly i am reading this novel bout a poor young boy who is damn unlucky ..
he had to learn bout responsibility the way just like his dad...
but wut to do ...he did dig them ...i mean he was the cause of his trouble..
so....he should learn how to face them...
same goes to me...i've got to make a move man...no more sitting around lazy bumbum
but yeah i'm still young..i still have problem with ironing my clothes btw..
so that shows how not ready i am...
but yeah hearing the story of my fren who is in dilemma ...
suddenly i felt lucky...although i do have the similar problem i dun have to deal with them on the spot like he needs to...
but yeah...those problem will make u even mature...what's wrong with that??
i tell u what's wrong...u can't meet ur fren that often or u can't really go spontaneous
cause u have other things to deal with
the time with family will be cut down...damn...i m not ready to be juggled by two women
who one i should listen to for the rest of my life cause i have to ...
and another one i have to listen to because if not there will be threats of war
and this war is not as simple as u think
because this war is expensive n it will cost u money n time ...
n to make the situation worse...what if this two women cant really click with each other...
then i'm dead....i can dig my own grave at that time...
hermmmmmm damn....naah ...i'm taking this shit too serious...
this shit wont happen any soon ...that's for sure...i think...hopefully....kot????
am i going too much around the bushes??? naah u guys shouldnt figure this shit out..
cause it doesnt really matter anyway...

The Light?

“Kami adalah kaum yang mencintai kematian seperti kamu cintakan kehidupan”

These are the words of a very strong wise man that changed the world in some ways. He brought light with him to a very big country and because of the light a great man was also born. We are all born with the light but we sometimes tend to forget that without this light, we won't be blessed as blessed as we are today. Today we can see someone who searched through the darkness and found the light appreciates them more than we appreciate this light. For example the man who lived with the life of sex and booze turned to be someone who live a life that not many people could live. a blessed life that is not given to any man without devotion and self discipline.
This light that i am talking about travels fast although it didn't travel as fast as the real "light" but more and more people are seeing it. For me this light is nothing different to the light that we learn in science. That is the light that could turn into seven colours of the rainbow. If you know that these seven lights came from one basic colour that is White. And you could even say that this light is as pure as the white light. Why i said that this light is nothing different is because people that says they found this light are divided to a few types of them. There are a few groups of them that say some other groups that don't have the same opinion as they are, these people are astray or wrong.
But they should realise that all of us came from the same root of light that is white. This white colour is the colour of true teachings that was brought by our prophet Muhammad S.AW. . It was us ourselves that turn the pure white colour of his teaching into a few other colours. These colours are actually what makes this light beatiful. It can be divided into many other colours yet it could even goes back to white again. The problem that I see today is that we, the ones who knows about the existence of the light couldn't find a way to get it back to the one colour that unite us all.
There is a way that could put together all the divided colours into one. That is to find the similarity and forget the difference that we have. The difference that we all have could complete our weakness that might not be the weakness of the others. It is not the case of who is right who is wrong, it's the case of holding to the words of the prophet and the words of Allah. As long as we are holding to the "LaillahaillaLah Muhammadurrasullullah", insyaallah we are on the right path.
We were once the major player in the World. We were once respected, feared and also admired at the same time by the ones who hates us. But that is the case of we were once. History means nothing if we could not hold on to the reputation that was built by our ancestors. This light is about moving forward and only turns back when it is needed. That is to see the mistake that was made by our ancestors that could make us a better person than they were.
Now if you realise that we are living in the dark ages although we are holding the light in our hand. We know that we have the light but we don't know how to use it right. Until someone that could show us the right way to use the light that's in our hand or we ourselve figure them out we shall continue to live in the darkness. Until we know's how to unite the different colours into one and use it to light up the world, we shall continue to be like this. But i believe there will come a time when we realise how important the light is that we will try to put it together and make it through together because Allah is always with the people who is truthful and seek for the truth.
I'm writing this not because i'm good but to remind mysef about this as difference wont take place without effort. it's not like anybody will come across to this, as i don't even think that the number of people who knows about the existence of this blog is more than the number of my fingers. Before i could change anything, I should change myself first who has a lot more weaknesses and that should start today and now so that I could create a better tomorrow for myself and people around me. Appreciates the light that you have because it could be the light saber that could save your life on this world and the world after..;)

must buy list..(not for me though..hehe)

abah: for now 3 pieces of t shirt
mama: herm...i'll think bout something..
fiza:still undecided..
khadijah:hmmm hehe(sengih)
fadz: kasut...ok this on settle
nur: aiyoyo...ok ok ..i'll get u sumthing
who else should be in the list first??
pak ali, mak min and my cuzins hermmm..i hope i can find sumthing..
i might get mama n mak min the same thing ...(jeng jeng jeng idea came 4 fiza n khadijah)....
fiza : besteckt fuer das haus kot
khadijah: something to do with her house jugak...
n now my frens....
i'll try to get something if there are some money left...hehehe..
dun be mad... i am always pokai douh
i'll get this thing done with when i'm free
i mean a proper one.... cool...hehe

Mama....

You suffered nine months holding me with all your strenghts,
people said that it's the most painful pain u will ever experience apart from death,
but you were strong enough to hold on,
then i came to this world without knowing how cruel could it be,
but with you guiding me, it was made hell a lot easy,
you were my strength to keep on going,
if not i wouldn't be here where i am suppose to be,
the best food ever is neither in victoria station nor at mamak stall,
the best food ever is still yours,
even if you cook simple telur mata kerbau,
you are the best friend i could find apart from Allah,
you thought me to be close to Him,
n never to forget Him,
you remind me to be who i am, and to believe in myself,
even i could buy the whole world, it would never be enough to repay you,
it was you who shaped me,
it was you that put the smile on my face every single day
and it was you who teach me to love and care,
even the time when we used to not to talk to each other for days,
those times were hard but it made us closer,
no matter what happens you are always my mum,
and you will always be the best to me,
the only thing i could do is just say i love you,
and never forget to pray for you,
i know you have never been far away from me,
cause i know, your prayer has been with me all the time,
being far from you had thought me a lot,
but yet i still miss you,
hope you have a great day, today ,and forever,
cause i know, although I'm not there,
my sisters will always take good care of you,
happy mother's day mama...- aman

goal and challenges

goal,challenge, two things that complete each other
without the challenge the goal will be meaningless,
some people scored their goal without even seeing it,
that i should say just pure luck or they must be really good at it,
without the goal,the challenge is also meaningless,
as you don't know what is the purpose of those challenges,
people always say that they can smell the victory,
but I always know that they are wrong,
as the victory can only be felt by a winner,
a winner has gone through the worst case scenario,
a winner who was as low as the grass,
but made their way as high as the sky,
and he knows that sky has no ends,
and also knows that he could fall harder than he could ever imagine,
a dreamer will never know where they are,
they will always be in between the sky and the grass,
but a winner knows how it feels to be up down and in between,
wake up from sweet dreams as sweet dreams promise emptiness,
as sweet dreams have never been real,
cause there is no easy way to reach the sky,
especially when you are as heavy as an elephant, or as lazy as myself,
but nobody say it is impossible,even if you are lazy,
but only with help of the ladyluck,
but then again the luck is just a temporary friend,
cause you should know that it won't stays with you forever,
even if u tried so hard, so why would he be helping you,
when you yourself is not helping you?
luck is like a candle, the light will never last,
it could leave you in the darkness with the slightest wind,
and a hard work is not enough to keep the light,
but a smart work will do the job just fine,
that's what makes us different from the rest,
that is to use Allah's gift to lead the life that we have,
to achieve the goal that has been set,
not alone, but along ...along with others that we have.

just to remind myself that life that i have will never last if i dun try to keep them alive....