WISE???

Today i woke up and felt that my shoulder bothers me..
probably cause i just came back from training yesterday...
it's always hard once u stop...that's the hardest thing n even harder than ur first start
but then...a man gotta do wut a man gotta do..
yeah the same goes with everything..
i need to remind myself that study is the same thing..
u need to try to start in order to make it a habit n in order to keep it in mind..
do not stop...cause once u stop....it all goes back to square one...
it will be even harder as u know that u knew them all but ...
u need to get through it all over again...n that suck..!!!
yeah same goes to golf...even football...although u still can hit the ball or kick like u usually do
but ur fitness level is rather low n ur body needs time to get used to it...
that's what i've learned through experience...
i felt like this before the time i start to hit the balls back..
getting up in the morning is tougher than hitting the ball itself....
but yeah sitting n writing won't result in nething...
i am talking slower than i used to be...maybe the "age" factor i guess hehe
although i'm not that old...heheh but i think i've grown up than i was...
so there's no use to be tough...i should know them myself n the consequences...
i should know how to deal with what i've chosen to do...
n i should learn to live with it as that was my choice...
there's no used in regret or nething.....
hopefully i will stay as wise as i was or even wiser than i was ...


p/s: hermmmm i think i'm missing someone this weekend....;)

Loser n problems??

Loser??? there's no loser in losing...
cause all winner have lost before dun they??
as for me ...luck was not on my team's side that day..
maybe not on the semi final...
we played well...we gave fight....n we were actually better than the other team...
we played hard but in the end ladyluck was smiling ...
but not because we won....
but because she is saving the luck for us to use next time...
maybe that next time is more important than this time..:)
neway....at least we tried...
i'm proud of my team .....the captain was great n the players went 100% n maybe more..
that was not our day...
at least we din lose at giving our strength n will to win
at least we din give up..
at least we put up a fight....
but i felt pity to the seniors..they were great..i mean really gud...they deserve to win...
wut i learned from last weekend...
u might think that u are losing....but u r not...
u might be in control but u wont know the outcome...
it might not like wut u think it will be ...
it's His decision that will give u the answer in the end...
but that dusnt mean u could just sit n watch...
waiting n waiting wont do nething...
u gotta move...move with confidence...
sometimes u gotta trust urself with wut u r doing...
it might be hard but sumtimes it's worth it...
loser is sumone who fails to decide to do something ...
loser is also someone who decides to do something but fails to do it...
not the one who decide to do something but fail after trying
we planned we tried to stick to our plan n we did stick to them...
again we are not blaming the lady luck for the lost...
we just know that lady luck is keeping that luck for us until we really need it..
God has plan for us...He knows wut's best...maybe we lost yesterday...
that dusnt mean we will lose everyday...
loser is someone who is afraid of facing the problem he's having..
but he doesn't know that....
problem is for us to solve...
problem is for us to face...
problem wont trouble u until u trouble urself...
problem is a fren unless u run away...
problem is a teacher unless u dun want to learn from them
problems teach us to decide n be wise in making our decisions...
without problems there will be no amazing creation...
so to be a wise man n not a loser ....go find problems...
but u gotta find the problems that u know u could face...
not looking problems that u know that u will run away from them...
cause the problem have gps n they could detect where u are...
so be nice to them or else...
u know wut's gonna happen...;)

why good things dun last long??

Today woke up at 2 and was thinking wut should i do apart from train myself to wake up early??
so i talk to myself...have i been good all this while?? cause i don't think so...
but that is not the point of my story today...yeay cool...it rained today ...why am i supposed to skip n goes to rain??
okay back to the topic pls....
everybody will agree with me that nothing last forever ...but good things have never lasted so long ...
same goes to feeling....all you will know suddenly the feeling will be gone...
but how can we make it as long as we want?? i mean we are never satisfied with what we have..
that's why we are called human rite???
but then again...we have our brain to control them ... just like one of my favourite quote
"you can't just listen to your heart, you got to listen to your brain" - tin cup
but what people do nowadays ....they listen more to their heart just to satisfy themselves first...
but i dun think that will solve nething as human can never be fully satisfied..
and that's a fact....that's why Allah created brain...am i right??
this brain should control ur satisfaction and desire...
without this brain we are no better than lions
without this brain we are no better than chicken
without this brain we are no better than cats ??
without brain cats could even be better than us ..
see wut i mean...at least cat knows where his or her house is..
for someone who has no brain...do they even know they have house??
i guess no... so people...let's use follow our brain more than our heart..
cause world is actually a catastrophic place right now...because people follow their heart more than their brain
n this brain should help us to learn from our mistake ....the past meant nothing when u don't learn
but this brain could also destroy us and other people when we misused it,
so to avoid misusing of the brain u gotta have a good heart...now it goes back to the heart..
so do u get wut i'm trying to show here...from all i know ...
everything in this world are connected...n if one thing has gone out of their function n think for itself,
that is a monster disaster as it will effect other things too..
So to create a gud world u gotta start with a gud heart,
and a gud heart will always lead a gud brain,
with this combination u will make a gud decision that could give gud not just to u but also to others ...;)

I'm A PROUD FULHAM FAN

tomorrow...my wish could come true...it's two years since i started supporting this team..
last season was difficult n so does the year before and when chris coleman was sacked..
that was a bit down part of the story..
you see people have always been sarcastic bout the team that i'm supporting...
they have always been laughing...ok wut if i say i support spurs...i mean IF
people would certainly talk bad bout them not because they think that team suck...
but it's because that team is quite strong and they dun like them cause they are strong..
because most of them are supporters of big guns such as ARSenal,LIVERpool, ManCHESTHAIR UNITED, or even cHELLsea... oh 3 out of four are part of human body..
sorry to their supporter...hehe....ok back to the topic...
those fan most probably dun like teams like everton or spurs just because they could kill their dream....
but when i say that i support fulham...everyone will laugh...
i mean laugh in a sarcastic way...that is they way like...OMG...u hopeless little boy..
Fulham will never get newhere..dun u get it...NOWHERE!!..
but i laughed with them instead of hating them ... cause it might be true...
but tomorrow i'll be laughing even harder cause nobody have ever expected this to happen..
not even me...cause if we finish 8th on the table...that is actually an achievement ..
thinking back with players we have...8th is not easy...but we still made it..
so the lowest we could get now is the highest in our history...;)
n the highest we could get will be the cloud nine... that is EUROPA LEAGUE!!
that might not be as cool as CHAMPIONS LEAGUE( i still believe someday we'll be there)
but we still in europe...;)
at least better than Manchesthair Citybank...that has billions..
n we have somehow...less than 10 millions??
yup...that shows money isn't everything in the world...:D
but brain is!!....at least Roy Hodgson's brain is working ...;)
and hardwork does pay....ok i might be sound cocky...but i'm not as cocky as the big four ..
i mean they think they are invincible....that's why they call themselves the "big four"...
we'll see....cause i believe this ain't the end ...but only the start of the history...;)
we have beaten ARSenal, n MAN'sCHESTHAIR united's ARS ...at our scarily small
CRAVEN COTTAGE!!!
we were unlucky with chelsea n maybe Liverpool deserved the win...;)
cause i saw the match...but we aint far from them...
we just need to BELIEVE...just like wut miss Albakry would say to me...:P
N I BELIEVE ...we will reach the top one day...
all we need rite now is patience n take things step by step...
All the best for tomorrow the cottagers... Although new in my heart ..
it's long enough to make me feel a part of you guys...
C'mon FULHAM...C'mon FULHAM!!!

Responsibility??

Today i decided to change the colour of my writing or better known as font...
i dunno....this past few days has been weird...it's like sort of showing me hell lot of sign..
sign that i should have more feeling of responsible...
more feeling of care rather than care more or less...
suddenly i am reading this novel bout a poor young boy who is damn unlucky ..
he had to learn bout responsibility the way just like his dad...
but wut to do ...he did dig them ...i mean he was the cause of his trouble..
so....he should learn how to face them...
same goes to me...i've got to make a move man...no more sitting around lazy bumbum
but yeah i'm still young..i still have problem with ironing my clothes btw..
so that shows how not ready i am...
but yeah hearing the story of my fren who is in dilemma ...
suddenly i felt lucky...although i do have the similar problem i dun have to deal with them on the spot like he needs to...
but yeah...those problem will make u even mature...what's wrong with that??
i tell u what's wrong...u can't meet ur fren that often or u can't really go spontaneous
cause u have other things to deal with
the time with family will be cut down...damn...i m not ready to be juggled by two women
who one i should listen to for the rest of my life cause i have to ...
and another one i have to listen to because if not there will be threats of war
and this war is not as simple as u think
because this war is expensive n it will cost u money n time ...
n to make the situation worse...what if this two women cant really click with each other...
then i'm dead....i can dig my own grave at that time...
hermmmmmm damn....naah ...i'm taking this shit too serious...
this shit wont happen any soon ...that's for sure...i think...hopefully....kot????
am i going too much around the bushes??? naah u guys shouldnt figure this shit out..
cause it doesnt really matter anyway...

The Light?

“Kami adalah kaum yang mencintai kematian seperti kamu cintakan kehidupan”

These are the words of a very strong wise man that changed the world in some ways. He brought light with him to a very big country and because of the light a great man was also born. We are all born with the light but we sometimes tend to forget that without this light, we won't be blessed as blessed as we are today. Today we can see someone who searched through the darkness and found the light appreciates them more than we appreciate this light. For example the man who lived with the life of sex and booze turned to be someone who live a life that not many people could live. a blessed life that is not given to any man without devotion and self discipline.
This light that i am talking about travels fast although it didn't travel as fast as the real "light" but more and more people are seeing it. For me this light is nothing different to the light that we learn in science. That is the light that could turn into seven colours of the rainbow. If you know that these seven lights came from one basic colour that is White. And you could even say that this light is as pure as the white light. Why i said that this light is nothing different is because people that says they found this light are divided to a few types of them. There are a few groups of them that say some other groups that don't have the same opinion as they are, these people are astray or wrong.
But they should realise that all of us came from the same root of light that is white. This white colour is the colour of true teachings that was brought by our prophet Muhammad S.AW. . It was us ourselves that turn the pure white colour of his teaching into a few other colours. These colours are actually what makes this light beatiful. It can be divided into many other colours yet it could even goes back to white again. The problem that I see today is that we, the ones who knows about the existence of the light couldn't find a way to get it back to the one colour that unite us all.
There is a way that could put together all the divided colours into one. That is to find the similarity and forget the difference that we have. The difference that we all have could complete our weakness that might not be the weakness of the others. It is not the case of who is right who is wrong, it's the case of holding to the words of the prophet and the words of Allah. As long as we are holding to the "LaillahaillaLah Muhammadurrasullullah", insyaallah we are on the right path.
We were once the major player in the World. We were once respected, feared and also admired at the same time by the ones who hates us. But that is the case of we were once. History means nothing if we could not hold on to the reputation that was built by our ancestors. This light is about moving forward and only turns back when it is needed. That is to see the mistake that was made by our ancestors that could make us a better person than they were.
Now if you realise that we are living in the dark ages although we are holding the light in our hand. We know that we have the light but we don't know how to use it right. Until someone that could show us the right way to use the light that's in our hand or we ourselve figure them out we shall continue to live in the darkness. Until we know's how to unite the different colours into one and use it to light up the world, we shall continue to be like this. But i believe there will come a time when we realise how important the light is that we will try to put it together and make it through together because Allah is always with the people who is truthful and seek for the truth.
I'm writing this not because i'm good but to remind mysef about this as difference wont take place without effort. it's not like anybody will come across to this, as i don't even think that the number of people who knows about the existence of this blog is more than the number of my fingers. Before i could change anything, I should change myself first who has a lot more weaknesses and that should start today and now so that I could create a better tomorrow for myself and people around me. Appreciates the light that you have because it could be the light saber that could save your life on this world and the world after..;)

must buy list..(not for me though..hehe)

abah: for now 3 pieces of t shirt
mama: herm...i'll think bout something..
fiza:still undecided..
khadijah:hmmm hehe(sengih)
fadz: kasut...ok this on settle
nur: aiyoyo...ok ok ..i'll get u sumthing
who else should be in the list first??
pak ali, mak min and my cuzins hermmm..i hope i can find sumthing..
i might get mama n mak min the same thing ...(jeng jeng jeng idea came 4 fiza n khadijah)....
fiza : besteckt fuer das haus kot
khadijah: something to do with her house jugak...
n now my frens....
i'll try to get something if there are some money left...hehehe..
dun be mad... i am always pokai douh
i'll get this thing done with when i'm free
i mean a proper one.... cool...hehe

Mama....

You suffered nine months holding me with all your strenghts,
people said that it's the most painful pain u will ever experience apart from death,
but you were strong enough to hold on,
then i came to this world without knowing how cruel could it be,
but with you guiding me, it was made hell a lot easy,
you were my strength to keep on going,
if not i wouldn't be here where i am suppose to be,
the best food ever is neither in victoria station nor at mamak stall,
the best food ever is still yours,
even if you cook simple telur mata kerbau,
you are the best friend i could find apart from Allah,
you thought me to be close to Him,
n never to forget Him,
you remind me to be who i am, and to believe in myself,
even i could buy the whole world, it would never be enough to repay you,
it was you who shaped me,
it was you that put the smile on my face every single day
and it was you who teach me to love and care,
even the time when we used to not to talk to each other for days,
those times were hard but it made us closer,
no matter what happens you are always my mum,
and you will always be the best to me,
the only thing i could do is just say i love you,
and never forget to pray for you,
i know you have never been far away from me,
cause i know, your prayer has been with me all the time,
being far from you had thought me a lot,
but yet i still miss you,
hope you have a great day, today ,and forever,
cause i know, although I'm not there,
my sisters will always take good care of you,
happy mother's day mama...- aman

goal and challenges

goal,challenge, two things that complete each other
without the challenge the goal will be meaningless,
some people scored their goal without even seeing it,
that i should say just pure luck or they must be really good at it,
without the goal,the challenge is also meaningless,
as you don't know what is the purpose of those challenges,
people always say that they can smell the victory,
but I always know that they are wrong,
as the victory can only be felt by a winner,
a winner has gone through the worst case scenario,
a winner who was as low as the grass,
but made their way as high as the sky,
and he knows that sky has no ends,
and also knows that he could fall harder than he could ever imagine,
a dreamer will never know where they are,
they will always be in between the sky and the grass,
but a winner knows how it feels to be up down and in between,
wake up from sweet dreams as sweet dreams promise emptiness,
as sweet dreams have never been real,
cause there is no easy way to reach the sky,
especially when you are as heavy as an elephant, or as lazy as myself,
but nobody say it is impossible,even if you are lazy,
but only with help of the ladyluck,
but then again the luck is just a temporary friend,
cause you should know that it won't stays with you forever,
even if u tried so hard, so why would he be helping you,
when you yourself is not helping you?
luck is like a candle, the light will never last,
it could leave you in the darkness with the slightest wind,
and a hard work is not enough to keep the light,
but a smart work will do the job just fine,
that's what makes us different from the rest,
that is to use Allah's gift to lead the life that we have,
to achieve the goal that has been set,
not alone, but along ...along with others that we have.

just to remind myself that life that i have will never last if i dun try to keep them alive....

helpful or helpless ?? or just plain hopeless??

Man....europapark was awesome...damn awesome...it felt like u were thrown from outerspace n bounce back again n again until all the momentum has gone...
i myself couldn't believe that i waited for about an hour for each ride...wow...
i dunno that i am a very patient person...lol
and then back at the driver seat was like one of the best thing that has happened to me..
cause driving here is not like driving around irritating kl...lol...but that doesn't matter
cause i still break the rules in msia anyway...
the highway here is soooo damn smooth except i was stucked in jam...
that was on my way back from Ingolstadt...ok ok let me put things into order...

1. i drove a sharan around frankfurt...that's an achievement..lol..a manual sharan..lol ok no biggies wtv..
2. then i drove from frankfurt to europapark n had so much fun waiting for each n every ride n i waited average 45 minutes for everyride n i think i've wasted my youth age so much on the day waiting but it doesnt matter as the rides were awesome ..so i could forgive them neway...n then after a day of walking standing waiting sitting with nuttin much to eat i drove back 200+ km back to frankfurt while the others were comfortably sleeping... wow my heels felt like breaking into pieces...
3. on the next day after a short rest and recharge...i started another journey to help my senior who was moving her things to another part of germany which is 350 km away from frankfurt....n i drove at night on the Autobahn....kinda scary cause no highway lights here but life goes on ...
4. just after we arrived we had to bring things to her house but that wasnt so bad...;)
   
5. i slept that night like a baby that snores....n the next morning i drove back to frankfurt n luckily i stucked in a 2 km jam...but that wasnt so bad ....i did manage to calm myself down..lol...
6. as i arrived .... i put the seats of the sharan back to its places with Nira's help....not a bit of rest yet..lol...then i with a nut size confidence drove back to airport to send the mpv back to the rightful owner which was sixt...
7. as i finished with the car....n as i thought i could finally have my PROPER LUNCH!!! ....i remembered that i forgot my reading glass in the van.... luckily i was still at the airport but only to find myself at the terminal 1 when i returned the car at terminal 2.... heh
8. i find my way back to terminal 2 n found dat the car was no more there...n yet again lucky me....that the man who was working there was nice..n he helped me to call the person who took the car... to check that for me.... n then we chatted n then i found myself feeling guilty for being lucky....i wont talk more on that...
9. in the end i got home hungry tired n restless n feeling helpless and i might say hopeless....
10. luckily again that the doener shop was open....i dun have to cook...:)
11. SHIT THAT WAS SOME TRIP
    

Red, unhealthy, fat, nice food, wonders, future....

Liverpool just won at craven cottage.... that suck no matter what i'm proud..
we defended well till one small mistake...but they deserve to win somehow...i cant deny that
it's suck but it' true ...so WTevalongoria...
hahahah....had damn gud food with lots of fats and ended up sitting on couch watch football seeing my team fell to the reds..shit man...i'm getting fatter!!! ...no way i'm gonna let this happen dude..it tasted good seriously...
thanx to bado ami n others...damn...i was feeling like a 40 years old aunty who is 9 months pregnant waiting for her baby to come out ....i still can feel my stomach
BBQ was damn great man...i was invited this morning...had to go in a rush n missed last session of qualifying juz to be in time...knowing that msians are very popular with their janji malaysian or sum say janji melayu...gila racist!! hahahaha ..naah ...wtevamendes...
that was fun.... n then i was thinking bout easter ...what's the plan...hehe...
now i have 2 plans...either road trip to amsterdam....or go to europapark...if it's already open la...not sure bout it actually.....hehehe..but it would be fun to go europapark ...
amsterdam...i miss that place actually...my first oversea trip...that was when i was in standard six...damn jambu that time..hahaha....even i myself thought i was a girl..hahaha..that suck...
waahh...today quite alot...hehehe
but yeah i do wonders bout other stuffs....i juz keep it to myself bout this...
i juz dun wanna think bout it that much...since i still have 9 subjects to score...
not only to pass...but to SCORE!!! ok??? alles klar...ich versuche es...:)

Hermmmmmm

Not really my day today....
but still had fun play futsal.....
new junior ..i dunno where from but still older than me
they were excited seeing me as muslim..
haha...at first sight dun i look like a muslim???
it's okay not a problem...:)
tried sumthing din work out...
have not seen gud progresss but hopefully still working
MY HAIR WONT BE CUT UNTIL I AM THROUGH WITH ALL SUBJECTS
shall see how awful i will look...haha
starting to get busy with project ... hopefully die zeit geht schnell vorbei..:)
anyway....heard sad stories from my frens today...
hope it wont affect them so much...
sms no reply la... sad story la...
hehehe...i need roti canai!! cant believe i din order ne roti kosong as i was in msia last time
shit head betul...
neway.....i'll post later later la...i shall keep myself updated with new awful style..lol

JUGGLING...

In life you got to do lot's of thing at one time cause there will never be the word rest in our life ...not mine not yours not anybody's cause the only rest that we will be getting is when we are not breathing ......so juggling will be very useful for us to learn....for instance juggling 9 subjects with a target that is:NOT TO FAIL ANY OF THEM!!! .....so that i could move on to the next semester with a smile as big as my size 10 and a half feet.... and then it would be even better if i could fine time to brush up my golf skill at least once in a fortnight.... but yeah it aint easy as well as not cheap...so it will be bonus if i could do that too....on wednesday.... football if i have time....i haven't check whether i'll be available....it would be sad if i cant.... haih...but yeah 9 subjects aint easy.... i would love to do the IMPOSSIBLE .....life is full of suprises and so do i ...:).. plus have new character coming so more determination needed...i mean newly....cause the others have always been there...:)

BAUCHSCHMERZ!!!

SAKIT PERUT GILA
macam sial....

neway....it's been a while since the last time i had this pregnancy symptoms .... had to deal with wormit last two days but now no more...but toilet keep on calling me like crazy...haih..... whatever la.....

Class started have been to few .....next week the true sem will start ...now had nothing much going on..... but this sem should be different ...... it will be much hotter ....cause it's near SPRING!!!

cool now it's getting warmer by the day n flowers are growing...it should be beautiful.....

damn i owe kurik a lot douh....he saved my life...indirectly....cause as i went to the doctor...i got to know that my insurance card is blocked...lol....just imagine if i suffer from a serious injury n have to go to hospital only to know that i have a blocked insurance card n had either to pay all the cost myself or get to the insurance office as fast as i can before i'm dead just to make sure i dun have to pay for it... hehe....it wont be so funny if it happens... rite???

Football or American Football??? Liverpool or Manchester???

Ok.....enuff with my lame ass photo n get on with life or should i say that my life is just bout football....somehow yesterday or maybe a few weeks ago....i have these new thoughts of new game that is not played like how it should be played....come on ..dun blame me for that...it is because when i see the word FOOT and BALL i just imagine foot kicking balls so it's not my fault la... ok back to the story ... it all started when i got to know a fren....i was driving then suddenly she asked me do i watch american football...n she talked to her fren bout it like damn interesting...but i never think bout it after that until yesterday....i was at my frens house sumwhere in Mannheim n i saw this NFL game for PS 3 n i asked him bout it....he said it is actually more interesting than football...that made me wanna knoe more bout these freaking game that made a man wear thights and shows off their secret pad inside with these helmets that is even weirder than rempit's helmet... but maybe cause i'm not used to seeing it...ok fine...neway...then he told me more bout it ...it does sound interesting suprisingly....but i still wont agree with the name.. cause it is confusing .... I might be reading on this stuff when i got time...new interest?? maybe....

Manchester or Liverpool?? is there ne difference?? they both suck!!..haha..that's my opinion although i'm no on compared to the great Shabby singh.. u see both wears red n both are nuttin more than a club with money poaching talented players..... whether it will be the L red or the MU red that will win premier league this season...."es ist mir egal" is wut the germans will say... Rafa's team is just not entertaining for me n Fergie's team is nothing more than just arrogant big names that think they are the best in the world .... but in my mind rite now...football is getting more n more boring as the money is spoiling this beautiful game... a game that should build friendship n understanding n full of suprise have turned into a game full of hatred n corruption n the results are expected... that's what my thought rite now about football...although i never stop feeling like i own the world when i'm playing this game, i have lost interest in watching them these days...ok i think it is not fair for me to blame only those two..cause the likes of my old fav team which is Chelsea and the likes of The Citizens might be doing bigger damage to the game...but i still hates the MU red the most n L red follows after that...LOL...sorry mates for being personal here..lol but cant help it ...

Hello there...

First blog....NOT!!! i know ...lol LAME!! that's my middle name...ok maybe the fact that this is written while i'm listening to definitely maybe ... it doesn't effect the suckness of my first post on this very virgin blog that i'm writing.... so this is it...the start of a new day...