grenze

Ich versuche es ....
Ich habe so viel Fehler gemacht ,
vielleicht bin ich an der Grenze gekommen,
obwohl es ist nur ein kleiner Fehler,
habe ich es nicht bestanden,
und auch habe ich es nicht verstanden,
Aber Dein Wort, dass du geschrieben hast,
vielleicht ohne absicht,
oder habe ich falsch intepretiert,
weiss ich auch nicht,
in meiner Meinung hast du mich einen LUGER genannt,
obwohl du bist die erste, die wuste,
dass ich diese Dings gekauft habe ,
vielleicht dritte, aber das ist,
wenn ich die beide leute, die auch zur post mitgekommen sind, gerechnet habe
trotzdem hast du mich einen LUGER genennt,
das hat mein herz zerissen,
es tut so weh, dass ich nichts sagen kann
bis auf ich hier geschrieben habe,
vielleicht du liest es, und vielleicht du liest es nicht,
es ist mir egal, so lange habe ich niemand gesagt habe,
außer zu mir,
ich weiss es ist scheisse, meine Freundin zu sein,
Ich habe niemals Dings gemacht,
Du versuchst alles zu machen,
Ich weiss, bei dir so viel Dings jetzt passiert und ich bin nicht da,
Ich liebe dich so sehr,
Ich würde gerne hin und her fliegen,
aber ich bin kein SUPERMAN,
Ich bin nicht PERFEKT,
wenn du es liest und verstehen,
sag mal so,
vergiss es einfach,
ich habe nirgendwo mehr zu schreiben,
Ich versuche nicht unter drück gekommen sein,
aber es ist nicht so einfach,
Ich versuche es noch,
aber wenn du zu deiner Freunde diese dings geschrieben hast,
es tut sehr weh,
aber ich darf nicht stoppen

another nonsense

Those people are wasting their money on unnecessary needs. Why should i cut my allowance that they give me just to help them waste more money on fuels! I hope they realise this. They are the ones who wanted to have highways! I have given them highways, so they should pay like as much as I would like them to pay! I dun care that their money are being used to built those highways! It's my stamp of A********* that cost the most! Without it there wont be any projects! Why should i cut my allowance that they give to help them with the highways. It's not me who's gonna pay the toll. To hell with the road, as those holes won't do no harm. Just look at the accident rate, it's not as bad as u think. As long as i have escorts then it should be fine...

nonsense

I couldn't imaigine if my allowance is cut down to help the poor pay tolls,
when i myself are exempted from paying them,
I couldn't imagine myself to pay for the fuel,
when everybody else does that without my help,
I couldn't imagine to live in a terrace house,
when there is more than hundreds of people are without shelter,
I couldn't imagine that I to work my sock off,
when 90% of the population are not getting paid with what they deserve,
I couldn't imagine eating rice with soysauce and eggs,
when most people does this at the end of the month,
I couldn't imagine seeing my children walk to school under the sunlight,
when some has to swim across the river just to get to school,
I couldn't imagine myself not being in other country without paying a cents for my needs,
when most people have to spend all of their yearly salary just to get unvaluable experience,
I couldn't imagine my country has 100 storey tower,
when those money can be used to make thousand of poor people to be millionaires.
sometimes it'S just nonsense

life is just a task

This life will never be easy to every one. The life is nothing more than a task given by Allah for u to deal with so that u could learn from each of the problems that came along the way. Today a man came to me and asked me am i muslim out of nowhere. From the way he speaks he really has a lot of knowledge in Islam. But from lookwise he looks like a german. Some people who have islamophobic might looked at him with fear but i saw his peaceful face and it showed signs of faith in him.
Back to the topic i'm writing bout, This came to me today and i had some thinking bout it. Allah has asked us to be thankful to Him for what He has given us. Some people might forget when they have problems that some other people are dealing with more problems than they do. Sometimes we might forget during tough times that we could always turn to Him and he'll help us just like a lecturer in class but in a different way. He'll give us hints but we are the ones who should make the thinking. Some problems might even be solved with miracle when there is faith.
A man might have been living with just enough food to eat and just enough clothes to keep them warm, but he wont have to think more than that as usually Allah won't test him as much as a man with a lot of money and living in comfort zone but has to deal with a more complicated matters.
Being a student, i do find studying as a boring thing to do, but learning doesn't stop at school. Life itself can be counted as school.the task in life is actually more interesting. Sometimes the answer wont come so easy. When this happens, this is when the time we started to curse and blame Allah for what we have been given without thinking that it's just the same for other people as they are also being tested with hard times.
Being in comfort zone is also actually a test for uus This test is actually the hardest as we sometimes tend to forget that being there is harder than dealing with tough times. Being there will make us forget to say Alhamdulillah as he has given blessings to us.
Sometimes we tend to say Alhamdulillah even more when we are in trouble rather than having it all.
I am neither religious nor clever in these matters. But I do think that I tend to forget many times that Allah has helped me in many occasions. Instead of saying Alhamdulillah, I still do things he forbids me. I do hope this could help me remind myself that I should try and keep checking my track so that i wont be going the wrong path.
Sometimes the problem I'm facing is just what i created. It's just because I take things lightly after I got through one test.
Like now I'm studying sumwhere the people dont talk english and I'm having difficulties to get used to it. This is because it's been only 3 years since i started to learn this alien language. At the early stage was the time really hard and It went by so slowly as I was suffering and nearly broke down. With faith I still tried and He helped me giving me strenght. Now the pressure is less but still has the same pressure, but with His guidance it shouldn't be a problem if I work my sox off and strive to make things easier for me.
That was my problem, that is could not speak the language of the country I'm studying at, but a fren of mine is having bigger problem as he could not speak English properly because he grew up here where not much English is spoken. I could imagine how hard it is for him to deal with it. As seeing other people talking fluently is actually a bitter pill for u to swallow but it is also the medicine as it could motivates u to learn more and be better.
So if u are in trouble or need to deal with problems, dun take it as a burden instead take it as a blessing as u will actually someday realise it will helps u in the future and makes u stronger if u learn from it... sorry for the long essay.. it's been a while since I blogged or wrote essay. Kind of missing my own writing though...hehe ...loser gila

WE ARE IN THE FINAL!!!

It was one of those dream that have never been imagined by anyone b4,
the last post about fulham was nearly a year ago as we were finishing the highest that we have ever achieved. But this year has been magnificent or the german call it ' WAHNSINN'!!. We are heading to Hamburg after defeating Hamburg and we are just 90 minutes away from our first success since the day we won the not so known intertoto cup back in 2002. All of this are the result of hard work from the players themselves and also the mastermind himself that keep himself low and composed.
He is a one of a kind man and i like his style,
he can't easily be replaced and he has done a lot and instilled the spirit that the players have in themselve today.
Stand up if you still believe, that was heard from the supporters who were there through thick and thin. And they stood up since the day we were on the brink of relegation and still standing today by the team that gives us an advantage of extra men at craven cottage.
who says that you have to go to theatre of dream. we have been dreaming here in our old little cottage and that dream have come true today.
This cottage is feared by the likes of the old lady, shakhtar, wolfsburg, and also Hamburg.
They had the worst nightmare of their life playing on this pitch.
It doesn't gives you the comfortable feeling but yet we felt more comfortable this way.
Maybe that's why we are playing at this cottage.
If we can play the way we played today and stand all the way through the 90 minutes,
we will give the likes of aguero, forlan, and simao something to think about.
We shall show the believe in ourselve and keep on believing until the final whistle is blown,
and i believe that we will get the result we wanted.
If not meant to be it, we can still be proud as we have shown to them who we are today.
We can still stand tall and look back and say, this aint easy but we made it.
But still we won't let ourselve come out as the loser this time as this is a once in a blue moon chance.
Zamora WILL recover and i believe in him to do so in time,
Gera will keep on running like a horse that have never seen a finish line before,
Duff will terrorize the defence with his speed,
Murphy with make his pass as sharp as a sniper,
and the partnership between Aaron and Hangeland will keep their composure and be as solid as a rock!
And on that very day, which is on the 12th of May, We will show, that we are no longer,
THAT LITTLE OLD FULHAM!!
EUROPA LEAGUE..... we shall carve our name on the silverware!!
And to my man Hodgson.... I thank you for helping us to get this far and i hope u will stay as long as you can contribute.

hermmmm...

the season has changed,
daisies are growing and the flowers are blooming,
sunshine is smiling,
summer is coming,
i hope this summer brings more joy to us,
but yet wont make us forget what is life all about,
working hard should never stop,
although u've seen sunshine,
u can relax under the sun,
at the same time u should not forget that too much of everything is not good,
today i nearly lose them,
Alhamdulillah they will still be here when i am back in msia,
Insyaallah,
I have only a few more months before i come back,
but still many things to be done,
by tomorrow i have to finish most of the task given,
neway don't be too sad although it's raining,
cause in the end the sun will rise again,
no matter wut happen,
unless it's the end of the world,
and to my fren Aalia,
be strong as you know insyaallah ur brother will be safe by the Almighty,
just like the song last kiss,
' oh where oh where can my baby be,
the Lord took her away from me,
she's gone to heaven,
so i got to be good,
so i can see my baby when i leave this world',
insyaallah u will meet him again.

think...

I've stopped for a while,
took time for myself,
for my family, frens and someone ;),
not to mention to learn sumthing new,
saw the world,
heard voices and opinions,
now waiting for the results that could change all the plan,
it is still not out,
the most important thing is that i've learned to work myself out,
stretch to the limit of breaking down,
but that's not the only thing i've learned,
i needed more than myself to be inspired,
i needed more than a friend to move myself to the edge,
i need more than family to guide me,
i need more than luck to make sure i achieve them all,
i had all of them but i still don't feel it's enough,
but with Allah by my side,
i know that i will never be alone,
and the place i am right now is never permanent,
i can plan the future,
but i will never know what might come,
i can hope for what i might feel is best for myself,
but i don't actually know whats the best for myself,
i might think i am mature,
but i might not realise that i am still a child at heart,
i might think i am not ready,
but Allah knows when i am ready,
so what comes along is not a burden,
it's just another test that i wont fail,
one way or another,
cause there will be two path that will bring us to one same end..